Sadness

I absolutely hate those days when I am sad! That is a lot of negative in just that one statement..... I have been dealing with something lately that I am having a hard time with. I can now say that I have met the man of my dreams. He has a name and a face and he is perfect, well almost perfect. I have never had someone love me the way that he loves me to the point that I never want it to end. I love him with all of my heart, he is the man I have been waiting my whole life to meet! I can honestly say that and know that he is exactly everything I have wanted. So, why am I sad? Because unfortunately our timing is bad and we cannot have this perfect love that I have looked for my entire life.

I am not that person that is gonna be hateful towards those that have found their perfection, but somedays I wonder if it will ever happen for me. I honestly want to have that, I mean the kind of love where you put the other person first. Where you do things for them even though you don't like those things. I have never found any man that I have dated as a young woman and now as an adult that I would do that for......with this one exception. Seriously, I know this is one of those poor pitiful me posts, butI DESERVE this love. I deserve to love someone like that and deserve to have them love me back the same way. NOW I have to admit that I am not currently even wanting to date. I have been hurt so many times, and I want to just be on my own without the hassle of dating right now. Ugh.....these days just make me tired!!