It's been official for a whole week!

Last Monday at 1:45pm my marriage to Chase was officially over! It has been a very long 6 months, but it is now a done deal, no looking back. It is time to look forward and move on, for the girls sake and for my own. It is weird having been married for so long, and now to be SINGLE again. I am amazed at how things have changed over the past 12 years. I have never really though about what single moms go thru, until now. It is hard, a constant juggling act. You have to make time for everything, and you put yourself last every time. There is not anymore me time, except for when Chase has the girls. But even then I tend to work on the house and laundry and grocery shopping.

I have been reflecting on what it is that I want in life, and i have a mental list that I keep. It is gonna be an interesting adventure, I just hope that I am up for the ride! This past week has been a tough one. My emotions have been a roller coaster, with all of the ups and downs, happy to sad in 2 seconds flat. the girls are doing well, but I have them signed up to start counseling next week. They are needing to talk to someone, and I have found a girl from Harding that works really well with children. I think she is just what we need, and she will help the girls to deal with all of their stress that has come from the divorce.

Hopefully all of you reading are having a great week! Thnk you for your thoughts and prayers!

Your Grace is Enough

Great is your faithfulness,
Oh God of Jacob
You wrestle with
the sinner's restless heart
You lead me by still waters
into mercy
where nothing can keep us apart
So, remember your people
remember your children
Remember your promise
Oh God
For Your grace is enough
Your grace is enough
Your grace is enough for Me

Great is Your love and justice
God of Jacob
You use the weak to lead the strong
You lead us in the song of Heaven's victory
And all your people sing along
So remember your people
remember your children
remember your promise Oh God

For your Grace is enough
your Grace is enough
your Grace is enough
For your Grace is enough
for me

So remember your people
remember your children
remember your promise Oh God

For your grace is enough
your grace is enough
your grace is enough for me

A new Creation

We have had a great couple of weeks! I am going to admit to something, that I probably shouldn't! Before our world became topsy turvy, I was not much of one to sit and pray. I thought I was doing a good enough job, but I so was not doing anything but box checking. It has become more apparent to me over the last few weeks as I have watched Emma in school. She started this school year hating it. She acted up during class, and came home on yellow most of the days of the week. (shocking I know) She has had a rough start, so we decided to turn things around out our little house. We have changed some things, and the biggest one is how we pray. Not just for dinner anymore, or before bed. We pray all the time, and we pray for specific things. We pray every night for Emma, and her behavior in school. We pray that God protect us from harm in our little house every day. We pray for each other, and we try to keep a prayer in our hearts all day long. The girls babysitter this summer, told them that when they needed someone to talk to they could always talk to God. They have been doing it ever since. I think that by watching them I was convicted to do the same. There is nothing more powerful than listening to your babies pray.
I have sat outside the door and listened to Emma praying for her sister and her friends and family. She always asks God to help her act right at school too. I try to remember in the mornings to let her know that i am praying for her to have a good day, and i remind her that God is with her all the time watching over her. I am amazed at how just saying that has reassured her and helped her grow in her love of God.
We have started listening to KLOVE on the radio, and the positive message that has come from that is also helping with the girls.
NOW I am not saying that there is not any fighting in our little home, because we are 3 females living together, but it has not been as bad as it was in the beginning of the year. Granted when these little girls grow up and we have all of the HORMONES flowing thru this house, we will be praying a very different prayer! But for right now there is a new attitude and spirit in this house!

Your Grace is Enough

Great is your Faithfulness
Oh God of Jacob
You wrestle with the Sinner's
restless heart
You lead me by still waters