Found this, and LOVE this!

*****God doesn't give you the people you want, He gives you the people you NEED - To help you, to hurt you, to love you, to leave you and to make you into the person you were meant to be. ******


I found this on a girls Facebook status, and absolutely loved it. I have been trying to figure out why things keep happening the way that they do in my life, with no explanation to it. I am being molded into the person God wants me to be. I am sure that everyone else can see this so very clearly, but to me it has been so hard to see past the end of my nose. I love the fact that I do have friends who can step back and look at my life and offer guidance. They are the ones that I go to for the important stuff like why do I keep getting hurt with the decisions that I make?

I have some guy friends that I go to for advice alot. One in particular that has just been there for me since Christmas, and has been one of the main people I have leaned on in hard times. I think that a good deal of the people in my life are here to help guide me in my decision making process. For the first time in my life, I am out having to pay my own bills, and have my car worked on, and make a living for myself and the girls! That is a lot of firsts for me especially since the fam is out of state and all.

I have asked the guys that I am around about the tires and brakes issue that I am having, and I realize that I will probably be takin advantage of at the tire place, but that is just another lesson i am gonna have to learn. I am learning to swallow my pride and admit that I am a girl that does not know what I am doing.....which is extremely hard for me. Ask anyone that is around me, I am not wrong very often. Or at least I do not admit to it! HA So here I sit, in my little house, surrounded by pictures of all those I love and those who love me, google-ing buying tires and getting brakes put on the car information sites.....and I feel like a complete dork! But I do not want the guy at the tire place to know that I have no clue as to what I am talking about tomorrow! I really need to get this pride thing under control!

I am starting to understand why I am in the place in my life that I am in.
1. I made the decision to put my marriage on the chopping block. I had two choices, and I made the wrong one. I admit that now, but it was way easier to place the blame on the other party.
2. The choices I have made since then have not been ideal for me either. I started to date way tooo soon after my divorce was final. And now I am dealing with all of that.
3. I have this really competitive side to me that I think has laid dormant for the past few years! But it is pushing me to become the super successful business woman that I have always wanted to be. It is really awesome to see the things that I want come to fruition!
4. I left the church home that I had for the past 10 years and went to the other one across town, and started over. And by doing that, I found myself again. I found the true meaning of Christs love and God's grace! It is inspiring to walk into a building and feel the Holy Spirit surround you! I am so glad that I made the change!!

I also had to start over with making new friends. I have never had a problem with making new friends, but it was like I had noone there anymore that understood. I know that I did have my friends from before, but I felt so alone. Now did I make wise decisions in my friend making? Of course not, but I have learned so much from everyone that I have had connections with. Its funny how as time goes by, I see things in myself that I never would have thought I would be strong enough to do, but by watching others endure the same obstacles, I have gained wisdom. I have one friend that I go out with.......it is not a wise choice in friends as far as making healthy decisions, but she has been there for me when I have been at the very end of my rope. I also have my friends like Heather and Stephanie who will sit and listen to all of my troubles and offer up advice, granted I do not always ever take their advice, even though I should from the get go, I learn my lesson and then do things the way they had advised me to.

Now there are those who have entered my life and left a huge impact on me, and then left it again. From those people I have learned that I am stronger than I ever knew I could be. They brought me happiness and love and then walked out taking small peices of my heart with them. Luckily those other friends have been there to help me salvage the pieces and put it all together again.

I thank God daily for all of the people in my life. I am seeing that He is making me into who I need to be. I am grateful for all of the experiences that I have had so far in life, and I am anxious to see where exactly my life is headed and who I will be able to touch on my journey. I am also seeing that these experiences will allo me to help other women who get themselves in to the some of the same situations that I have over the years. My friend Joe told me the other day that You have people in your life that can help you bc someone has helped them. I am so glad that he told me that, bc now I know that I am destined to help others.