Prayers

I recieved an email yesterday that touched my heart! My cousin Jodi is pregnant with a little girl and due in December, but they just found out that the baby has spina bifida. I sat and thought about all the things that go through your mind when you are pregnant, and that was a big worry of mine. I think the scariest part of that worry becoming reality is the "what are we gonna do?" thought that goes through your mind! So I am asking for all of you to say a prayer for Jodi and David Beaver and their unborn baby girl! Her blog is linked over on the right, so you can go straight to her blog from this one if you would like to!

No time like the present..

Over the last few weeks, I have had time to reflect on so many things. The rise and fall of my marriage being the center of all that right now. It is hard for me to sit and look at everything in a definitive matter, but then again that is how it is.

As a little girl, you grow up thinking what life will be like when you grow up. The kids you will have, the house you will live in, the car you will drive, and of course the man you will marry. Like all little girls I was content knowing that there really is a perfect man for me, and I thought we had met several times thru the years. The typical girl thing! But now as I start this new chapter in my life as a single mom to two beautiful girls, I am looking back to the "what went wrongs?"

I am facing new challenges like getting a job, buying MY own house, and being single again. How people do it, I will never know. It is hard to know that everything I do or say wil shape the girl's life and outlook on marriage forever from here on out. It is a huge responsibility and something that I am taking very seriously.

I am also trying to look out for their best interest. Our divorce is not final yet, but the lines have been drawn in the sand so to speak, and we have to move on. This is a rambling blog today, bc I am sort of just trying to cope and move on. I know that God will provide the answers that I need to get thru this day and all the ones that come after it, but right now I am on my knees before His throne begging for answers and forgiveness.

Weekend Plans

Friday night was Emma's BIG birthday party. I must say that I love my kids parties. I do, I know I should not live thru my children and all that mess, but come party time, I do for them what I would love to have done for me. It never happens that way, but I still have hope that maybe one day it will happen!

So anyway, it was a fabulous evening. Perfect weather, tons of friends, and a lot of fun. I know you want to see pictures, but um, I have none to speak of right now! I know, but my camera was not working and so I borrowed one from my friend Julia. So she has all of the pictures right now, and will be handing them over tomorrow. So I will post all of them when I get them.

We had a butterfly party for Ms. Emma. She wanted it to be a butterfly fairy princess party.....big wishes to fill. I think we did pretty good, except for the fairy princess part. We had the butterfly thing nailed!

A little history for all of you readers new to my life. I do not bake well. I love to cook, but baking is not my thing, so I try to make my kids cakes every year, and FAIL every time. This year I started early. I made 2 nine inch round cakes that were going to be atop 2 ten inch square cakes. I made chocolate candy hearts to go on the cake for decorations, and then Emma and I painted nylon butterflies to have on her cake too. We used pipe cleaners to have them flying over the top of the cake. OK, so now I go to assemble my wonderful cake creation and everything is great. I am icing the mess out of it, and turn to do something else in the kitchen (multitasking at its best) and I turn to admire my cake when I see that the whole thing had slid off and crumbled on the table. I could not blame the girls bc they were outside at the time. This was at 4pm, and the party was at 6:30pm, so I was a little freaked. I usually burn the cake on party day, so I made my usual call to Kroger on Salem for a cake, but they did not have what I needed. In a panic, and tears I called Stephanie and told her about my mishap......By 4:30pm her husband brought me a homemade cake! In the mean time I called Wal-Mart and had them ice a cake for me. We used all of our decorations and made the CAKES our own. Steph's cake had the butterflies flying on it, with 6 sparklers on it. The store bought cake had a Mariposa doll on top and a #6 sparkler on it. It turned out great, but for about 30 minutes I wanted to call the party off.
Emma had a blast, she loved every minute of it. We had some surprises that evening too. Allison Horis drove 2 hours to come to the party(Erin's roommate in college)and then she drove home afterwards. I love the fact that Emma has so many friends that love her, and support her in her many journeys in life. We have been lucky as a family to share so many of our milestones with friends and family.
Kevin and Kimberly were here too, which was a first for Kevin. He has never been to a Tucker birthday party before, and I think he had a good time.

All in all, it was a successful party, with lots of wonderful memories that we will cherish until the next party. HAHA
I promise I will add pictures of the party, when I get them.

Happy Birthday Emma Claire!

6 years ago, I sat in a bed at Baptist hospital in Little Rock Arkansas, patiently waiting for the doctor to come in and say "you are fully dialated, and it is time to start pushing!" Of course my body had other plans and hung on another 2 hours and 52 minutes before my sweet Emma Claire was born. Tonight when she was lying in bed, I told her the story of the day she was born. She loves the story, but has started asking questions about the whole having a baby process. Emma is fascinated by how much we loved her, and could not wait for her to come out and join our family. She asked me tonight if I kissed on her as soon as she was born. I of course said yes, to which she scrunched her nose and said " oh gross momma! I was covered in blood and guts, that is just disgusting! Why would you do that?" I had to tell the truth, I didn't do that!! I told the doctor to clean her up before he handed her to me,because I thought it was gross. I am not a big fan of the just out of the belly unclean baby look. DO NOT JUDGE ME!!!!!!


We are having a hard night tonight, because she is not understanding that her party is not on her actual birthday. We go thru this every year, but it does not seem to help. We just cannot compete with Toad Suck Daze. We are gonna do something special tomorrow for my sweets, so in a few minutes, I will head out to Walmart to buy a birthday balloon, some cupcakes, a card, and things like that. Tomorrow night we will go to GlowGolf to play minigolf. She is excited about glowgolf, and will be equally excited about the balloon, which is good. Emma just likes to have FUN!!
Emma Is so much fun, but quite the little handful. She is VERY independent, but so funny. Here is one of her moments that still makes me laugh. Some of the college girls were here for devo about 2 weeks ago, and I was giving the girls a bath, I walked out to talk(shocker) and this is what happened.
Emma: Momma hurry come in here!! Abbi is hurt
Me(from the living room): Abbi, sweety you are okay. Shake it off(this usually works)
Emma: she can't momma, she hurt her BABY HOLE!
Me: (completely embarassed) Emma don't say that!!
The girls in the living room were cracking up, and looking at me like "what did she just say?" So I told them about Emma starting to ask all of those questions. I panicked and just told her the first thing that popped into my head, hence Baby hole.

I just realized that maybe this is not a good story to share on the internet,but it still cracks me up. I would post pictures, but cannot find any on this computer! We will add some tomorrow on the actual birthday!

I have been Tagged!

I was Tagged by Lauryn Rydl(or whatever her maried name is)


What I was doing 10 years ago:
I was about to graduate from Harding University(May '98)
I was working part time for Hibbett Sports in Conway
I was newly married
And was living in Conway until I graduated(I thought)


Five things on my To Do list today:

Help out at the school for enrichment day
Go to lunch with Julia
Go to Toad Suck Daze with Julia
Take stuff back to Target
Get Emma from school



What I would do if I were a billionaire:

Give to the church
GET OUT OF ALL OUR DEBT
support our college ministry at church
Pay off my parents debt
support the kids in the community that go without



Three of my bad habits:

*Texting ( I am addicted)
Eating Cheezit's late at night
Saying what is on my mind as soon as it enters it!! I have NO filter


Five jobs I have had:

Chicken Deboner ( first job ever)
Accounts payable for Enron (yes, I know. But it wasn't me!!)
Accounts payable for the city of Deer Park
Radio Sales for Equity Broadcasting in Little Rock
Ad sales for Publishing Concepts group in Little Rock

Three people I want to know more about:

Jodi Beaver
Samantha Allen
Amanda Sanders

Stuck in a RUT!!

So, if you had not noticed, I have not been on the internet in a while. There is not a good reason for it like I am stuck in the bahamas without a computer, I have just not had a computer! With that being said, I feel like I have missed telling you about all the nothings that go on around here. Unfortunately, there is not much to report, unlike those of you that are trigger happy with your cameras, taking way tooo many pictures of your kiddos (which I love every one of them) I do not have any to post. I will in 2 weeks because Emma's birthday is coming up. She will be 6 this coming Saturday, but her party is the following weekend due to the TOADSUCK conflict. you read it correctly, big conflict of interest in Conway! Not many come to a party the first weekend in May due to Toadsuck Daze, the annual town celebration. Don't ask about the name, just google it!

I am going to get better about posting entries again, I promise. With tons of pictures, and funny stories, and all of that stuff you like to see on someone else's blog page!!

So, what is going on in your life? Random thoughts!

I have taken a hiatus from the computer for the past two weeks, and now I am gonna play catch up! Unfortunately, not much to tell about! Today was the MS walk in Little Rock, we had a team of 20 signed up to walk with us, only 15 showed up. It was a fun time, the only downer for the day is that Carol was not able to go with us! I called her this morning, and she said she was sick and was not going to go walk. I was so sad, but we still had so much fun! And honestly, they gave free candy bars away!!!! HELLLLLOOOOO! Can you say Great Day? Cara came up to help with the girls, and they had a blast. She took them to the Dollar Tree, and so they came home with some great outside toys!! Emma picked chalks,and Abbi FINALLY picked bubbles.

We went to momma and daddies last weekend to help them move. We took a break and went fishing out at the ponds, and of course the biggest catch of the day went to ME!! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? I could hardly believe that I had a fish on the line. Not only was it the biggest, but the first of the day, weighing in at 5 pounds! Yep, a big ol sucker!! I am still not over that. I have not caught a fish since I was a little girl, and so the fact that I had no idea why my bobber was under water, cracked my daddy up! I fought that bad boy for about 10minutes, and when I got it up, I saw the massiveness of the fish.

Here are some random pictures of our day with Cara!!

Silly Faces were the main focus of our pictures today!! Emma took most of these! I know my mouth looks horrid! I was pooking my lips out!