And so it begins!

I have been putting off doing this for a while now, but have decided to take the advice of my counselor! I guess I should since I have given her so much money! Anyway, the idea is to look at the people in my life and decide which ones I need to have in my life! I have a problem with people using me! I hate that about myself, I always try to do what is best, but i always end up being used and taken advantag of! So anyway, today was the day that I finally did it! I sat down with my list of friends and decided which ones to keep in my life! I did not know that you could make decisions like that, but I NEED to take control of my life for me and the girls! I am scared that I am a making a mistake, but that is what life is all about! Pray for me while I venture on this journey to find what it is I am looking for! On my journey to find myself, and to put GOD back in the center of my life! You have all been so supportive and encouraging, and I covet your prayers! Thank you all for the prayers and love you send this way!

A good Week!

Every once in a while a good week pops up in the Tucker House! This is one of those weeks! Emma has had a fabulous week at school this week, Abbi is loving preschool, and I am having a great work week! I would say that we are just lucky this week, but I am learning that everything happens for a reason! And by that I mean that God is blessing us over and over! I am amazed at how often over the past few months we have been blessed. here are a few examples:

Our church(awesome)
Our Friends
Our House
My job
***we have been accepted by some of the State funded programs that are helping us out right now tremendously!

Now a little bit about all of these.
*Church
We have started going to UCC in Conway, and I have been blessed by being in the presence of The Lord every time I walk into the building! It amazes me how you can feel the love in the room when you walk in. I have never in my life felt more accepted and loved by complete strangers. It has been a wonderful experience for me and the girls. I am a better mother because of it! I also have met one of my favorite people there, and could not imagine not having her in my daily life. She has been an awesome friend, and I would not have met her if we were not going thru this divorce.

*Friends
Friends have always been an important part of my life, and the girls are starting to see how wonderful it is to have great friends. At the end of last year I met one of the other motheres at Emma's school, and we started talking. Over the summer while I was working, she cared for and loved my children as she would her own. She has been a source of strength to me, she and her husband have a marriage that makes you yearn to find that true love you hear about but never see.
Tami and Thomas are amazing people, and have opened my eyes to so much! I hate to admit but growing up in the Church of Christ i have been closed minded to others in the world. Such an elitest frame of mind. They are amazing christians that share the love of God with everyone around them. They inspire me everyday. I love them. Emma and their daughter Annabelle are good friends and Abbi and Kaedyn are best buddies! So we spend a lot of time with them.

Hollie and Hank are two of my favorite people.I met them at UCC and we have become great friends. For a while Hollie was one of the only people I talked to on a daily basis. She has her head on straight and has been thru this mess before and has helped me to put one foot in front of the other in digging my way out of desparity. She and Hank are the type of people that when you meet them you are instantly at home. There is alot to be said for people who can make you feel welcomed and invited in 2 seconds flat. They are great great friends that hold very dear to my heart.
Stephanie Havens and I have been friends for 10 1/2 years, and we have been thru a lot over that time frame. Luckily our little rent house is in the same neighborhood with her and Nicky, we have always lived right down the road, but this is just the best. We still see them about the same amount of time as before, but knowing that they are right there is a blessing in its self.

*House
Who would have thought that finding a rent house that backs up to the elementary school would make me so happy! It was an amazing day when we found it. I had 3 houses lined up to move into, and they all 3 fell thru within days of each other(not a good couple of days for me) i was at such a low point that i could not stop crying. My house with Chase was sold, and we had nowhere to go. I knew we could not live with friends, with school and all of that so I panicked. You know what all good moms do! Haha I called Steph and she calmly told me to cal a properties company here in Conway that has several rent houses around town. I did not expecting anything to come from it, and when the guy called me back he had our current house available. I was so excited that I proposed to him on the phone and started crying. No worries i am not marrying my landlord(just in case you were wondering) Emma now walks to school everyday which has helped me to get her to school on time everyday! YAY No more late days! A true blessing for me.

* Job
This one is probably the biggest one where God has blessed us. I would not have thought to call and set up an interview, but my sweet Emma Claire suggested that I call them. I did and had the interview and pretty much got hired on the spot! My boss hired a single mom going thru a divorce with no money, no home, and said I believe in you. I also work from home 3 out of 4 days, with Fridays off. My hours are 8:30 - 2:30 every day so that I can have time with my kids! If God was not present in the set up of this, then I would be stuck in a 9-5 job paying for daycare, and unable to spend time that I need with my girls! Tami watches them in the afternoons and Abbi all day on Wednesday so I can work! I am telling you it is amazing!

I hope that we are able to Glorify God in all that He has done for us! I still feel unworthy of all of the blessings, but so happy to experience the True Love of God in all of its glory. Please keep us in your prayers as our journey is not quite complete thru the land of divorce. Emma and Abbi are still having a hard time with the shuffle between the two houses, and honestly with the divorce itself. They are wonderful loving little girls, who have been tremendously affected by all of this.